on god and happiness

had a loong chat with sony yesterday, mostly abt our ideas on god, also, some part on happiness
my view abt god is that god is a positive force in the universe, not removed from it. i think that god is intrinsic, within the universe, the default goodness in the universe. pure optimism, part experience (i keep forgetting the sangeet incident...i have already forgotten the other one)
i dont think god is the extremely powerful concept that people make him out to be. just a guiding force, easily ignored by most. it raises lots of issues about ethics, personal answerability etc. i have prayed hard thrice now, got a magical response each time...if i dont get upto scratch, when will my luck run out? :D
this is all veering off into Alchemist kinda fundae...positive force, beginners luck, happiness = peace etc
no sign of those omens though :D

really hit it on the head there when i realised that ultimate happiness is eventually about being at peace with oneself. being somewhere where u deserve to be (and this aint any of that career ambition kinda stuff)
again, this is similar to the destiny funda of the alchemist

i wonder if my repeated attempts at fucking my present career and life should be construed as omens :D :D